Merry Christmas!

I hope you're all doing well. Much Love and Merry Christmas!

Wish You Music

I hope once in a while, you discover new music.
And I hope sometimes, you have the occasion to sit and bleed, blissfully.
And on certain days, I hope, the best thing that happens to you, is your playlist.
I hope you find magic and the answers you've been looking for.

Hang In There, My Madness

Dear Madness of mine, I love you. I love you more than you can imagine, more than I usually admit. You have always wished me well and I am grateful.You have been my greatest possession. It's true. But for now, I must leave. You see the world never understood your sister, Freedom and never took seriously dear Love. And right now, Routine calls, and you know how he is.... humorless. Ever since Time once outran him, he's never forgiven himself. I must leave now, only to return. Wait for me, won't you? Please don't leave me. You are my own and I love you so. Please stay with me, always.

Kinds Of Love

Cause there is I love you, i luv u, love ya and love you. And, they are not all the same.
And then, there is me and you. 

A Disaster Of Your Making

If you knew how much I love you, you would never forgive yourself.

You

You, are your hopes and dreams.
Your love and lust.
Your fears and courage.
And all your words.
You...are the universe.
Floating on a speck of dust.

How I See It

Misconception : God exists and loves you.
In truth : Love exists and gods you.

All I Want... Is Everything

They say, "You can't have everything."
But I am a fool.....
I will always dream of having everything.
And my everything is you.

In The Movies

The sun would have shone on us warmly, as you told me you love me

There would have been no scorching heat...

And we would have kissed right under that tree, cause there would have been no bumble bee

I was afraid of.... 

If You Pass Me By

And for one crazy second I thought I should let you know...
Nobody can love you the way I do.
But then you seemed content, and troubled with far more pleasant things...
And I hoped you were so.
And in silent prayers, I thanked a god I've never known
But if you ever pass me by on a street
Could you tell me you were happy? 

If You're Lost, But There

I know this was not where you thought you'd be.
And nothing's gone the way you wanted.
And there's no sense to life, when all you've ever perceived as sense is lost.
And you don't know what to dream of, when you're in a dream too late
But if you've managed to keep breathing so far....
Would you please stay on....
And would you dream a new dream for me.
And should you need someone to tell you this...
You're doing just fine.

Shh...It's A Secret

You were missed today. But don't tell anyone I told you that. They didn't want you to know that.

In Your Sky

At first you were the summer breeze just palpable on my skin.
And I was in love with you, your smell, your touch, your soft tug at me.
But I should have known you would take me down, for you were the wind.
And I should have known you'd storm away with pieces of me.
And I should have known I'd never find myself, once you'd dealt with me.
But should you care, I was yours, even in your fury. 

Train Back Home

"Hey, looking for a train?"
"Yes, I've bought a ticket to a train back home.Could you please tell me where these trains go?"
"Well, this one goes west, that one south east, that one north, and I'm not really sure about that one."
"Thanks, that must be the one."
"But hey kid, I don't know where that train goes!"
"That's alright cause I don't know where is home."

Terminal Love

I have too much love running through my veins.
I'll drain out my life loving you.

Mother

And amid all the harshness, I know the world is beautiful.
That there is tenderness and there is love.
That they exist and are real.
Cause you are...cause you are...

The Part Of You, You Don't Own

You don't know. But, I've been stealing.
I've saved a smile of yours.
A frown from behind that desk.
Your face, your eyes, that scar.
The tilt of your head, from yesterday, at 15 degrees.
That mole on your neck.
The smell of your hair, and the wind that blew through it.
The vibrations of your voice.
A tear, and the light that shone off it.
Your walk, that walk. Your words, every word.
Your laugh, your gasp.
The way you sound when you're out of breath.
A little song you'd hummed just the other day.
That clumsy skip you made on your way.
A weird noise. A feisty reply.
A really funny, awkward goodbye.
A silly "huh?", a helpless "why?"
A stubborn "No", a silent cry
A look of anger on your face.
A look of sorrow, Of peace....
A look of turbulence, A look of hope.
And a naked look of love.
I've taken a million snapshots of you in my head.
I've recorded your every word, heartbeat and footstep.
I have exhausted my memory space with you.
And I've stolen every second I could
And saved you, in a place safe even from time.
And in this moment, this ache. It's mine.
Mine to cherish. Mine to keep.
Mine to live with.
There's a part of you, you do not own.
And This part of you...is mine.

On Being Okay

"How are you?"
"I'm ok, I'm....okay."
You know what's going on inside the man who says 'I'm ok' twice.

Why

Tell me why, why is that...
Thieves come together, but saviors do not?
The haters collude, but lovers stray further apart?

Of Stolen Bicycle Rides

"Shh....Quiet. Brother's asleep. Now's the time, quick, sit behind me."
And we hurtled down the cobbled streets and let the wind chase after you and me. 

Losing You

Don't put me through this. I can't take it. How can you?

Please don't. Not yet. Not just yet. Don't go.

Stay. Please stay. Say whatever. Don't just take it all.

Please don't just fall apart.

You win, like you always do, so stay please?
I just can't watch losing you to you. 

I'm Here

And this was just to let you know that...if you want to talk about it, or avoid it completely, I'm here.

For I Will, For You

And if it's okay with you, let me miss him for you.

I've Been Told

I've been told
That I can only hurt so much, and then no more.
I can only love so much, and then my heart itself will run dry.
I can only miss someone, so much, and then even helplessness will numb itself
That time, time is something that will always leave me embarrassed
About my faith in my emotions, my beliefs, my love
And make a fool out of me.
That I'll only ever know I've been fooled once it's too late.
That someday, I will realize I've been silly....
And hide away from my past lovers, once I can't begin to imagine why I ever fell in love with them in the first place.
That I should hide away from the one I love anyway, until I can fall out of love.
That until I fall out of love, I will believe they're mine in every breath, even if I know they're not.
That it doesn't pay to not let people escape your heart, once they've escaped from your life.
That they will escape someday, anyway
That I'm my only enemy
That I can live, love, fall again
That everything can be just okay and that's as good as it ever gets
I've been told...
I've been told...
I've been told...
But I'm only a fool
And I will only ever, hurt so much, love so much and miss you....just so much.

The Kind Of Smile

"What are you looking for?"
"A smile..."
"Oh! There are plenty of pretty smiles here.You'll find one."
"That's not it, I'm looking for a particular kind."
"A particular kind? What kind?"
"The one that has nothing against me."

But You Had To Know

I wish I had whispered in your ear "There's more, there really is more."
But when I saw you that day, I knew, Nothing I said could ever surprise you.

I'm Not Guilty

There have been times...
I've killed myself over my smile.
Let you slip off my mind for just a second,
and then returned to you, terrified...
I've hurt enough and so much
I've cut myself, to keep my wounds bleeding...
I'm alive and I've felt it. And for this I'm forever grateful.
But I need you to know this...
I'll save you your place, always.
You can come and go, as you please.
But should I choose to live now, I'm not guilty.

As We Danced Into The Night

The colors bounced off your skin, as I looked at you in awe.

Soft music played into our ears, and time promised to stay a while...

As we danced into the night.

An Afternoon Of Simpler Things

Lets lay on our backs, on the floor. And do nothing, once more.

Don't talk of life or love, or of the world. We don't have to.
Talk about the weather, your tan, the weekend groceries.
Lets glide into the evening and stick to simpler things.

The Anti-Climax

Oh! You'll get there eventually. But when you do, you'll know less than you did before and wish you'd gone a little slow. And when you do, you won't know where to go anymore.

Truth Be Told

No, I've never wanted you to love me. I love you too much.
I could never wish you pain, even if I were to stay.
I could never risk your heart, what if I could break it apart?
And believe it or not, but it's true, I love my freedom more than you.

The Child From Everywhere

"Home is where the heart is" or at least so he was told.
So he broke his into pieces. And then powdered it to dust.
Then sprinkled it across the world, till it was everywhere.

Of Homecoming

"You're beautiful!" I smile at your greens. " And your waters, I've missed you."
"You're back", you smile at me. "You know, home will always take you."

In Seek Of Permission

If I told you I understand, you couldn't love me too.

Then would you please, let me love you?

Of Goodbyes

It's a small small world.
We will meet again.
You won't remember me.
But I'll love you just the same.

The Thing About Pain

There are only two ways to get rid of pain. And one of them is to feel it.
To kill it, leaves a stench.

Motion Blur

These days I can't keep up....
Perhaps the world's too fast for me, or maybe it's too slow.
The days fly by in seconds, but the years are all the same.
And nothing really catches my attention, since you've been gone.

Until The Day I Leave

You can take me for granted. It's okay, I don't mind at all.
I'll be right here, just in case, as long as I am yours.
But the day I leave, I'll leave without a word. And I won't be found.
Then again, that is, that is not for now.

Never mind

There were things I wanted to tell you. Things I had in mind. But you'd only smile and take me for a child. It's okay. Never mind.

A Note Of Thanks To pleasefindthis

http://www.iwrotethisforyou.me/
Here's a blog I hope you will all check out. And then read the book - I Wrote This For You. For just about anything I write has been influenced by 'pleasefindthis / me'. So Thank you 'pleasefindthis' for much love, and spreading love and goodwill on a regular basis. Don't know of  anyone who did the job any better. And to everyone else, I'm sure you'll enjoy the read. :)

The Who I'd Become

And I'll replace all my photo frames with serene landscapes.

Erase my way out of lives, quietly, violently.

Hope to be forgotten, cause you forgot me.

Cause no one else matters, or ever will.

The Funny Thing Is

No matter how many times I promise myself I should give up, I don't.
And the world says let go, when I'm holding on and hold on, when I'm letting go.

If You'd Let Me In

If you'd let me in your heart, I'd have a look around.
Replace what is broken, and look for what was mine.
I promise I wont steal a thing, I'd just have a look around.
Look around and then leave it safe and sound.

For Only You.

Music - overture by Aurah

The Start Of A War

They tell you nothing matters. No love. No ties. No heartbreaks. No memories. No feelings. Not you. Not me. Not them. Nothing. And then, No lives.

The Sunshine Dealer

Every morning he would wake with a little tune in his head. Then he'd hum that tune to himself and walk up to his secret place. His was a land of fresh, abundant sunshine washed through with just enough oxygen. And then he'd sit by the day collecting sunshine in little glass bottles. He'd drink a little himself and get a little tipsy. He'd smile at strangers who would almost always smile back. They would know the lyrics to his song and join in. And in the dark hours of the night, he would exchange his little bottles for a kindness returned. He had a thriving business. And if you'd ever visited him at home, you'd see how it shone. You'd see how he shone. 

Here's A Sign

I know you've been looking for them.
In words. In your thought patterns. In your dreams.
In the morning newspaper, at the front page.
And then, casually flipping over to the horoscopes section.
In the utterances of a random stranger.
In the speed of the days.
In the weather. The taste of food. In every expression.
You've gone over them a thousand times.
You've studied each line, curve and symbol carefully.
And you've almost figured it all out.
But you'll go over them once again.
Maybe you've got it all wrong.
But maybe you've got them all right.
What then?
Well, here's a sign.

What You Had To Say

I want you to hear me out. But I couldn't say a word if you'd listen.

Green And Blue

You were neither a lover, nor a friend. Not an enemy or a foe.
Yet when you left, there was I. Painted green and blue.

How You Make Me Feel

I don't know how you make me feel inside. But I hope, what I'm feeling is life.

You Don't Know The Way

Don't say you love me. You'll never get there. I saw you that day, when you destroyed the map. You thought no one had.

Of Love, Madness And Silence

Today, I searched every wall for your silhouette. Every room for your smell. And then I braved my way through the crowd. Who were those people, love? Who were they? They were nice, I suppose. Meant well. But I couldn't stand that din, I'd rather be here....with this screaming silence.

A Place For You

And this could be all you'd ever dreamt of. A place where you'd live. With everything you wanted. And it's people, you would pick.